Feel the Fear…

Life is so short…too short to let fear push you in a corner and cower there until it’s safe to come out again. You won’t get anywhere living life like this. Yeah, life is scary & nothing about it is certain but you want to at least be happy or be able to live your life to the fullest while you’re still alive. Live…embrace life. Enjoy it…love it. Grab fear my the horns and jump head first into whatever makes you happy. 

Do  so with caution but jump…jump…believing in yourself….jump knowing that your faith and hard work is going to lead you into a life you’ve always wanted! Don’t let fear stop you…don’t let it strip your smile…bury your dreams…slow your heartbeat….Focus on being happy and free. Believe with all your heart & soul that your dreams are going to come true…then work your ass off and don’t forget to pray! Feel the feel & do it anyway!

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What It Takes To Be Successful 

​Was sooooooo down yesterday…was going post something really hateful, evil and hurtful about a person who hurt me … but I told myself I’m better than that (told ya’ll growth is a mutha󾌪but LAWDDDDDD did it take HELL A WILLPOWER ) …plus I’m building a brand so I have to think twice with anything that my name is attached to…if I’m going to continue  be successful. Now while I’m still dealing with the hurt (& trust me it’s HARD as hell… especially when it came from a family member that I trusted with my life) as much as I want to be an ass and do the whole eye for an eye thing… I’m being still for once & leaving it in God’s hands… Though that so is much easier said than done󾌼…but when I woke up this morning to see myself still sitting pretty on the best sellers lists (thanks to my amazing readers ❤) & to a great person I met a while back…(who is also an avid reader) that admitted that she was sleeping on me…but that she  was wrong and she loved Taste Us Together & to the tons of others who have told me they enjoyed by new book since it’s release…I kind of remembered that I got too much going for me & more important things to be concerned about than to put on my petty bonnet & be ignorant…so ya’ll please pray for me because I truly believe that Jesus has got some freaking awesome things in store for me…if I can just stop being hotheaded…. head strong and impatient when I just need to go down somewhere…lol…that’s that damn ♈ in me…I’m working on it thou󾌩󾌩󾌩…I got this…I think! Lmao! #stillaworkinprogress #lordgivemestrength #thatariesinme  #revengeisminesaidthelord #butlordcanipleasejustgetonegoodhit #okayjesusillbegood  #winning #tasteustogether #youbettergetyouacopy

This Is Only The Beginning!

After leaving a good friend’s bridal shower yesterday, I was approached by two former coworkers. Now we only spoke in passing, during the time we worked together, so I knew very little of them on a personal level. Anyway, the first lady came up to me and said,

“I’ve been hearing great things about you. I didn’t know you wrote so many books. Congratulations on all of your success. You’re such an inspiration. Where can I purchase your books? I’m so happy for you.”  Then the second lady approached and said to me,
“Give me a hug girl. I am so proud of you. You really out here doing your thing!”

After thanking them both for their kind words and encouragement and explaining to them where they both could purchase my books, we parted ways. As I moved to my car, I realized that I was still smiling at what just happened to me. And on my forty five minute drive home I got to reflect on just why that was…

You see not only did their words mean the world to me but it let me know that someone is always behind the scenes rooting for you to succeed. Cheering for you to do you best. Praying that you chase your dreams down and never let them go. You never know who you’re an inspiration too. You just never know. And its crazy because I never consider myself to be an inspiration to anyone. I’m just another person who didn’t give up on their dreams…

When I get approached like this it is a truly humbling experience for me.(And it happens more than I realized.) It’s a high I can’t explain. I just truly felt blessed that these ladies even came up to me  to even come up to me in the first place and just tell me such things
Now this may be small to you but to me what they did was encourage me and further solidify that I’m on the right track when it comes to going after my dreams.

Don’t get me wrong tho, I know that, though I’m still paying my dues, I’m definitely on the right track. But I do get discouraged sometimes. I find myself drowning in the negativity of others sometimes. I do find myself listening and worrying more about the people who put me down and discourage me than I do about the people who uplift me. I do wonder if following my dreams is still a good idea at times. I even debate about quitting because I don’t feel like I get the support and love I deserve.

But then I remember, that I really love what I do and my trails are all apart of the process and that as long as I have support of those close to me no matter how small, I’m doing better than I thought…

I was terrified when I decided to chase my dreams and I still am… but when you have people like this in the background, giving you the thumbs up and encouraging you to push through your pain to whatever dream you want to accomplish in life, you know that God has truly blessed you and that this is only the beginning.

So just to be clear, I am truly blessed and this is only just the beginning! 17 books and counting. God is good!

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Hopefully… You’ll Get The Pleasure

I write from the heart, with the hope and intention that you enjoy my work but I also write for me. I need to get these stories out of me. To get this poetry out of me. If I keep all of this emotion in me, I’ll explode. I need to record on paper how life makes me feel… Why life makes me feel… Which in my opinion is what makes me a damn good author.

But most won’t give me a chance to let me touch their soul with my words and possibly change some of their views on life into a less judgmental more positive outlook on people like me. People that are so in love with what we do, we bare our naked soul to you through each piece we birth into the world. And I don’t mean the surface of who we are either.

I mean my writings are powerful enough to reach into your heart and control the way it beats for the rest of your life. So please don’t assume that because I am unknown and that I work at another small independent press that my  words aren’t grand enough to change your life.

Stop trying to take my importance from me, stop trying to silence my voice. I am here on earth to do great things but only for a short time… Hopefully, you’ll get the pleasure to experience me.

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Never Judge A Book By Its Cover

When my first romance novel, Playing For Keeps was released, I told a family member about my book and explained to her that I  was trying to contact the  company she worked for about advertising for my book. I was in turn told that after she glanced at the cover of my book for no more than a second, that her company didn’t promote “THOSE” type of books. Urban books! Ha! Smh. After explaining to her that Playing For Keeps is a love story and that I didn’t write “THOSE” type of books or really know what “THOSE” type of books were and that my book was classified as urban because I am African American, she sort of developed the deer in headlights look. Although I knew she meant hood books, she was still premature in her judgment of my book, hood books and the word urban in general. Anyway, she said for me to send my book to her and she would let me know her thoughts before I tried to get contact the proper department in her company. Needless to say, I never heard from her again. And that was fine with me because my “URBAN” book graced the amazon bestsellers list for two months and went to go on to do great numbers even after that. Wonder what she’ll say if by the grace of GOD, my “URBAN” book is turned into a huge major motion movie one day…My point is, I just want this to be a lesson to all of you judgmental people to never judge a book by its cover. Playing for keeps is a universal love story that can be classified as a romantic suspense and anyone can relate, no matter what color you are. I write romance and erotica. If you don’t read those genres that’s absolutely fine with me but don’t just assume that by based on the covers of my books that you know exactly what they’re about. Yes my characters, curse sometimes and have lots and lots of sex and think naughty thoughts damn near all of the time… but they also go through traumatic experiences, they deal with personal issues, some struggle with drinking, gambling, police brutality, family issues, misunderstandings,  loss and learning how to love again after having being hurt so bad til they can’t go on. I put my characters through a lot. I give them heavy  burdens to overcome. I make them as human as possible…and I am damn good at it.  So the next time you see a book, please hold your judgment until you’ve at least opened the first page. You just might be surprised…
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I’m A Survivor (of my fears)

When I first decided that I wanted to become a writer, I was terrified. Terrified because I was completely consumed with failure. I had a dream…I had many dreams… but becoming a bestselling published author was…the ultimate dream.

By the time, I hit my junior year of high school, writing was all I could think about. Writing had become the center of my life…and the rest of my world revolved it. To be known as a successful, published author was… ALL  I wanted to accomplish…& my ONLY  key to happiness but I was scared.

I WAS SO SCARED… I didn’t think I was good enough…or If my romance was romantic enough… Or my erotica…erotic enough. Only thing I was certain was that my love for writing was more than real enough.

The feeling I got from writing let me know that, putting pen to paper was without a doubt….my calling. But even though this beautiful art was calling to me, I was lost…in my fears of failing. I spent more time wondering what would happen if I failed and why becoming an author was a bad idea…& thinking that writing was more of a hobbie than an occupation…that I waisted precious time…precious years that I wish I could get back.

I waisted many years by crippling my dreams…ALL because didn’t have enough faith or common since to know that I could do anything I  put my mind too. But in my mind, I was too young, didn’t have enough experience, didn’t have enough people to believe in me. Didn’t know enouh people that wiuld support me.

I wasn’t smart enough or popular enough or hell, even pretty enough to try to even think about becoming an author. I went on hindering myself for years and years…and years before I  actually sat down in front of a computer …& then I let another year slip by living in fear while I sat at the computer…with my fingers poised on the keys…each and every time I sat down to write.

But then one day…something happened…something finally clicked and in that moment if I wasn’t to become a succesful published author…All I needed was to believe in myself…All I had to do was have just a little faith in myself…in my talent…& I would soar beyond even sights unseen.

At that moment…I knew I had found my faith…my courage and finally jumped off the cliff and build my plane on the way down. I looked fear in the face…& I said…not today. Not ever again will I let you steal anymore of my precious time…I got it from here…& that was the day…that I had become a survivor. A survivor of my fears.

Don’t let your fears hold you back…life is wayyyy too short…not to spread you’re wings & fly.

Ms. Author

Life Is A Highwayyyyyyyy

I don’t know what it is about those cool summer nights …but I love to be out on the highway…with no particular destination in mind…just driving to… wherever the night takes me…

…There’s something so fulfilling about the  night time views and the all too well known landmarks with my music blarring through the speakers…as I wiz by…with the wind in my hair.

The windows are rolled down midway and most of the time…one 90’s r&b artist after another is just crooning away… giving me life as I hug the curves and try my best to get ahead of the stars as they shoot across the beautiful, clear picturesque night sky.

When I’m in the zone, during a late night or early morning…there is no greater moment of clarity…no greater moment of peace than me, myself and I on that open road. With few cars out…I just feel the night…I embrace this little personal time….I apprecite it…its my highway.

Sometimes…I’m laughing, happy, singing along with the radio and mentally writing books other times I’m sad, depressed, crying and mentally writing, I’m pondering life, questioning my purpose, talking to God…& other times I’m just quiet…taking life in and just letting the breeze, the music and my thoughts just take me away.

As I prepare to head out for one of my late nite drives…a song crosses my mind….I smiling as grab up my phone and scroll through my playlists…I press play…& smile as the guitars from one of my all time favorite songs immediately makes me come alive with joy…because it expains exactly how I feel when get behind the wheel…& take to that open road…because…life is highway…& I want to ride it all nite long…If you’re going my way, I want to ride it all night long.

Ms. Author

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This Is What Drives Me…

What drives me…is the little girl who had to live with no heat, light, food, who had to boil water to bathe…who was constantly being pulled from her bed to the floor to take cover when bullets rang almost nightly outside of her window.

…Who had to sleep on a mattress in front of the fireplace to keep warm. Whose mother went hungry to make sure she and her brother ate and…told us not to be embarrassed when we had to climb out of the car window because she couldn’t afford to get the car fixed…

What drives me is the young girl who was excited to shop at the good will while everyone else shopped at the mall…the young girl who caught her mother crying because her two children had become a burden to her…long before she was turned away for welfare. The young girl who swore her grandmother hated her (but later found out…that she herself had never really known love…)

The young lady who struggled with depression and lost her first love at the age of 15 and wanted to die too. The young girl who had to where a dress from her sister’s closet as her prom dress because her mom couldn’t afford to purchase her one….

What drives me…is the young woman who trusted too easily… loved too hard…and didn’t think she was good enough or pretty enough…or smart enough…but was always kind enough…

What drives me is…the woman who was severely harassed for damn near five years and almost let it stifle her…but somehow found the courage…wisdom and strength…to keep going…

…The young lady whose dream it was to become an author… and wrote on her bedroom wall that she would become a bestselling author in magic marker if it was the last thing she did.

What drives me…is the woman who  became a bestselling author…in the summer of 2013… when her very first book found its way to the bestseller’s list…

She is what drives me…for she is me…I am what drives me…I am so much stronger than I give myself credit for. Don’t ever let anybody tell you that your story ain’t worth telling…

Because it is…Trust me, it really is…

Ms. Author India

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Why I Write Romance

I don’t know about you but I can turn on my television to the news  any given day or night…or log on to any social media sight…and I am immediately bombarded with horrible, tragic, scary, upsetting and sad images of the world… how we treat each other and the things we do to one another.

Its only in sifting through all of the negative that you may be able to find something to smile about. Where you ginuinely feel like…okay, there are still some good ppl in the world…there are still some reasons to smile…just because someone else is happy…only then does that feeling of hopelessness fade…even if only for a wrinkle in time.

Writing, romance is my way of balancing out the world so to speak. To spread love, especially black love. Its so many woman out here…who has just given up on love. I write romance, not only because I’m a hopless romantic at heart but because I want to give all of those woman and even some men hope…that true love is alive and well.

I want to encourage them….show them another way. That fairly tales do exist in real life. The only difference in the real life ones in those from our childhood… is that we have to finish writing the fairytale after the credits roll…we have to be both willing and dedicated…to ensuring that our fairytale will live on…

We have to be willing to make sure we continue to nurture that love…we have to plant the seed…sow the soil..water the roots daily and give it lots of love and care…and this is why I write romance.

I want to take you on that journey from darkness to sunshine…I write for the hopeless romantic…I write for that smile that slids across your lips…once you’ve read the last pg of one of my books…and made you believe in love again

Fairytales are just something I feel we need…More happy ends in real life…and I mean come on…who doesn’t enjoy a good love story??!!! I write romance because when I die…I will leave behind hope for many generations…that finding love isn’t just the magic of fairytales…but one of the greatest joys of real life…

Ms. Author

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High…Low(The Story of Us)

In the movie, The Story of Us, the family play a game of sorts called: High/ Low. Basically you share your high: the thing that brought you the most joy for that day and your low…the thing that brought you the most sadness for that day. Just sort of a twist on the plain age old quesion: How was your day.

This concept is not only something I use in my household to this day(I first saw the movie many years ago) but a question I ask of every character I create. By asking them this question, I get to find out what makes them tick…what makes them who they are. And the effects of their day to day highs and lows. This way I am ensuring that they are as transparent as possible…as real as possible.

When I write, I want more people to identify with both the angel and the devil that perch themselves upon my characters shoulders that help influence their day to day habits and decisions. This way I know that I have created them to be seen in the most possible human light that I can think of…so you as the reader become so transfixed in the story until  not only are you dying to know what happens next …but you can relate.

And when I write not only do I want you to enjoy the journey that I’m going to take you on…I want you to be able to relate on some level. So please understand, I write to be able to give you an escape and a reality. A love and a pain. A sunrise and a sunset. Joy and pain. A high and a low. As an author, only when you feel all of these emotions, is when I feel I’ve done my job of entertaining you.

Peace & love to you. (And be sure to check of the story of us. Staring Bruce Willis. Its a beautiful love story.)

Ms. Author

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